What do you want?

Can you accept the notion that once you change your internal state, you don’t need the external world to provide you with a reason to feel joy, gratitude, appreciation, or any other elevated emotion?” Dr. Joe Dispenza, breaking the habit of being yourself.

Fortunately I never fell into the self help trap of- ‘5 steps to a new you’ or something of the like. I’ve always innately understood that to get to the good stuff, it will likely take some work. But the question always was, where is the map?

When in the midst of trials, it isn’t always the easiest thing to ask God/Goddess or the universe because you aren’t thinking of perceiving correctly. So anything that comes through to you appears garbled, in riddles or blurry at best.

Sometimes the best thing to ask yourself is, what do I want? What will bring me the most joy? What makes my life complete? Envisioning yourself being well, filled with joy and happy. And if we are really perceptive, we will soon realize that there is no outside source that has the magic ticket but it is all found within. The greatest hurdle… getting the mind right.

We are all so accustomed to thinking about what troubles us but what about thinking about what we actually want? What if we were to focus solely on what we want and liberate our minds from the chains of our worries and concerns?

I had been told for years that meditating was not good because I was emptying my mind, rather than filling it with God’s word. But the trouble for me was the bible was still a place to attain to- the concepts and ways of living that were listed in it were to be achieved. Sure the holy spirit would help you get there, I understood that. But I always felt there was something more to it. I found that with disciplined bible reading, it wasn’t fixing the damage, it was merely paving over it. I didn’t feel like I was becoming a new person, I felt like I was putting on a new person but one that looked like me. If that makes any sense at all…

So over the last several months since we have been out in California and I am away from the projections of others, their perceptions of who I am, I have been able to discover who I really am. She does not identify with religion. She doesn’t hold a book above any other books. She prefers nature over a building called church. She would rather love people, just to love them without an agenda. Not to love them to save them from themselves. Because honestly, I believe this is how God loves people, Jesus sure did.

I had to ask myself what I wanted. A good hard questioning of myself. The answers weren’t the kind of answers I may have had 10 years ago, or even 6 months ago. I want peace. I want wholeness. I want to know the truth, the real truth. I want to walk away from anything that feels like its choking the life out of me. Or anything that looks like a “to do” list. I want to break free of the man made contructs of time and space.

We are here to build a new world because the old systems are failing and many have already failed but a small group of people keep gluing and taping it back together from behind the curtain and telling us to not pay attention to what is going in behind the curtain. The curtain needs to come down! The veil, if you will…

Life isn’t what we think it is. Many of the things we spend time chasing after and promoting are simply in place to keep us busy and often times complacent. We have been sold on ideas and ideologies. Do you really want a huge house and a ton of money in the bank? Will that make you feel whole? You know what many before us have said about what it is like at the top? 1, there is nothing at the top and 2, it is lonely up there.

Money won’t fill you; religion won’t fill you, a partner won’t do it either. Get your head in the game and seek an elevated way of living. Real living. If you can clear away all the clutter and chatter, you will see and hear the truth. It knows you are looking for it, it will come to you. Wholeness is found in and of self. You are indeed a terrifying person when you need nothing outside of yourself to find satisfaction and that is the way it ought to be.

I hope this helps and encourages someone today. This message revealed to me was of great comfort. It freed me from outside influences or circumstances within my environment. It gave me the courage to be stronger and to know I wasn’t burying my feelings or thoughts but that this is just who I am. I am independent of those around me, in the sense that I could remain uneffected and at the same time, we are all connected. It doesn’t have to alter my thoughts and actions. For any of you that have been following me here or my other blog for years prior, you have a vague idea of my daily challenges, so my sentiments in this last paragraph may make better sense to you.

This finding freedom blog was started as a consorted effort of sharing ideas and movements toward finding freedom and freedom of the mind is a massive player. Once you reach that place, what do you have left to fear?

The ebb and flow of life.

“On the last and greatest day of the festival, Jesus stood and said in a loud voice, “Let anyone who is thirsty come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them.”By this he meant the Spirit, whom those who believed in him were later to receive. Up to that time the Spirit had not been given, since Jesus had not yet been glorified.” John 7:37-39

We have been in California for 2 weeks now, there are two things that I feel Papa in really working into us while being here so far. Trust and rest. We are foreigners here. I can count on one hand how many people we know or have met. We trusted Papa to get us out here and we will continue to trust Him to reveal our purpose here too. It was such a sudden move, He blew the doors open just as we had stopped considering a move across the country at that moment. How does a family like ours integrate ourselves into a new community, meet new people and make new friends? If there is any one thing I can take away from the entire moving and transplanting experience is, nothing can be rushed.

I had a lovely picture the Lord brought to my mind this morning as I was laying by the pool and praying. I saw a rocky terrain with water flowing through it, winding and turning freely through the rocks and pebbles. But then the water came upon some larger rocks and got an extra surge and powered right over them with no effort. I felt like the Lord was highlighting this to me today. Here is what I believed it meant for my family and possibly for you too.

There is a saying in this life that I have heard many times; just go with the flow. The trouble with that flow, is that it may be headed the wrong direction and from my experience it usually was. You certainly don’t want to have a damage plan for your life but a plan for hope, to be prospered and for a future, just like Papa says in Jeremiah 29:11.

When you are living in the flow of the Spirit, it doesn’t matter where you are or who you are with, you will succeed. It does not matter what obstacles are in your way, the Holy Spirit flowing within you and through you help you power through. Nothing is too hard for God. God is not afraid of what you are facing. He is aware of the diagnosis. He knows about all the bills; the heartache, the dreams that died, the foreign land that you are in. If the Holy Spirit is within you none of these momentary troubles stack up against the power and the strength that raised Christ from the dead.

If I am flowing with Him I have nothing to fear. It’s at the moment that I step outside of His flow that I have exercised my will, inviting in fear and all of his nasty friends. If I am flowing with the Spirit is there any challenge I cannot take on or any task too great? You see, it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives within me and was He ever impressed by fallen or broken circumstances? No— and neither should we. Jesus walked this earth, just like we do each day but He lived from the heaven to earth. We have the ability to do the same!

“And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus…” Ephesians 2:6

This is us friends! We are seated with Him. We have His spirit within us to conquer whatever this life may throw at us! He didn’t get ruffled about everything. He didn’t tailspin when He was having a seemingly bad day, He flowed with Papa right through His days. He ushered in heaven wherever He went. Jesus went with the flow, He went with the heavenly flow. He didn’t “fit in,” He stood out, we are called to stand out, to be in this world but not of it, meaning not an extension of it. This world isn’t meant to make it’s mark on me, I am to make a mark on it. This world and it’s ideologies are a shadow of the world and life to come. We have found our little corner of heaven here in California but we know that this isn’t where we kick our feet up and consider ourselves as having arrived. I don’t know exactly what we are doing here but Papa does and we know that He will reveal all the ways we can bring heaven with us wherever we go.

“Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world.” 1 John 4:17 NKJV

Oh friends, let the love of God flow through you everywhere you go! Know that His Spirit flows within you and makes all things possible should you just trust Him. Know that His heart toward you is good, His thoughts about you number more than the grains of sand. His love for you is more than you are able to imagine. Just ask Him how much He loves you! Allow yourself to follow in His flow, no thing that you encounter will be too difficult. He has no fear of the things that lie before you, therefore you can have confidence that as long as you are hidden in Him, you shall have no cause to fear either. I pray this blessed someone today!