What do you want?

Can you accept the notion that once you change your internal state, you don’t need the external world to provide you with a reason to feel joy, gratitude, appreciation, or any other elevated emotion?” Dr. Joe Dispenza, breaking the habit of being yourself.

Fortunately I never fell into the self help trap of- ‘5 steps to a new you’ or something of the like. I’ve always innately understood that to get to the good stuff, it will likely take some work. But the question always was, where is the map?

When in the midst of trials, it isn’t always the easiest thing to ask God/Goddess or the universe because you aren’t thinking of perceiving correctly. So anything that comes through to you appears garbled, in riddles or blurry at best.

Sometimes the best thing to ask yourself is, what do I want? What will bring me the most joy? What makes my life complete? Envisioning yourself being well, filled with joy and happy. And if we are really perceptive, we will soon realize that there is no outside source that has the magic ticket but it is all found within. The greatest hurdle… getting the mind right.

We are all so accustomed to thinking about what troubles us but what about thinking about what we actually want? What if we were to focus solely on what we want and liberate our minds from the chains of our worries and concerns?

I had been told for years that meditating was not good because I was emptying my mind, rather than filling it with God’s word. But the trouble for me was the bible was still a place to attain to- the concepts and ways of living that were listed in it were to be achieved. Sure the holy spirit would help you get there, I understood that. But I always felt there was something more to it. I found that with disciplined bible reading, it wasn’t fixing the damage, it was merely paving over it. I didn’t feel like I was becoming a new person, I felt like I was putting on a new person but one that looked like me. If that makes any sense at all…

So over the last several months since we have been out in California and I am away from the projections of others, their perceptions of who I am, I have been able to discover who I really am. She does not identify with religion. She doesn’t hold a book above any other books. She prefers nature over a building called church. She would rather love people, just to love them without an agenda. Not to love them to save them from themselves. Because honestly, I believe this is how God loves people, Jesus sure did.

I had to ask myself what I wanted. A good hard questioning of myself. The answers weren’t the kind of answers I may have had 10 years ago, or even 6 months ago. I want peace. I want wholeness. I want to know the truth, the real truth. I want to walk away from anything that feels like its choking the life out of me. Or anything that looks like a “to do” list. I want to break free of the man made contructs of time and space.

We are here to build a new world because the old systems are failing and many have already failed but a small group of people keep gluing and taping it back together from behind the curtain and telling us to not pay attention to what is going in behind the curtain. The curtain needs to come down! The veil, if you will…

Life isn’t what we think it is. Many of the things we spend time chasing after and promoting are simply in place to keep us busy and often times complacent. We have been sold on ideas and ideologies. Do you really want a huge house and a ton of money in the bank? Will that make you feel whole? You know what many before us have said about what it is like at the top? 1, there is nothing at the top and 2, it is lonely up there.

Money won’t fill you; religion won’t fill you, a partner won’t do it either. Get your head in the game and seek an elevated way of living. Real living. If you can clear away all the clutter and chatter, you will see and hear the truth. It knows you are looking for it, it will come to you. Wholeness is found in and of self. You are indeed a terrifying person when you need nothing outside of yourself to find satisfaction and that is the way it ought to be.

I hope this helps and encourages someone today. This message revealed to me was of great comfort. It freed me from outside influences or circumstances within my environment. It gave me the courage to be stronger and to know I wasn’t burying my feelings or thoughts but that this is just who I am. I am independent of those around me, in the sense that I could remain uneffected and at the same time, we are all connected. It doesn’t have to alter my thoughts and actions. For any of you that have been following me here or my other blog for years prior, you have a vague idea of my daily challenges, so my sentiments in this last paragraph may make better sense to you.

This finding freedom blog was started as a consorted effort of sharing ideas and movements toward finding freedom and freedom of the mind is a massive player. Once you reach that place, what do you have left to fear?

Trauma life

I haven’t written in a while, I know… It isn’t that I haven’t had anything to say, it’s just, I didn’t know how to articulate all the things that have been going through my mind the last several months. I feel some days, as though the veil has been pulled from my eyes and I see so many things about life so much clearer. Although, that doesn’t make the day to day any easier, it has just served to remove my comforting safety blanket from around me. Which, I have always said, give me the truth, even if it hurts— no matter how ugly it is.

This week was a real tear. Our daughter was in the hospital again, first time in quite a while. So, that in itself is quite the victory. But it doesn’t make this week any less painful. We were beginning to see shades of last years misadventure in her health, so I knew it was time to take her in. The trauma life is exhausting. I have spent the better part of my silence with the blog meditating and finding new ways to usher in peace. Because to be honest, the old ways weren’t cutting it. I grew frustrated with muttering scriptures and listening to worship music, when some days I just didn’t believe the words. I’m being utterly honest. There is a brutal truth though, I must say to the power of renewing the mind. I believe it is key. But the well from which that renewal comes from isn’t as small as I once believed it to be.

Trauma, when experienced in life as an extreme series of events begins to mold who you are. I’m not speaking of an isolated event, although those carry their own weight too. But I am addressing here is, one event after another and another, sometimes adding up to years of trauma. Inescapable trauma. As for our household, we take all manner or measures to prevent undue trauma. We foresaw the events that unfolded this last week and fought to prevent them but did not have the “modern medical community’s” cooperation. What we experienced could have been prevented, had they listened and acted.

Trauma can be likened to magnets. When one counterpart moves, the other moves. There is an awareness, that is almost superhuman in place that has to exist as such. Without it, survival is compromised. It is living hyper-attuned. You see, after a series of traumatic events and remaining there (especially because you have to) you cannot go back to who you once were because that person no longer exists. The woman I once knew is long gone. We share memories; some common interests, maybe even music but she is far behind me.

I have spent the past several months rediscovering who I am. What makes me tick. What lights my soul on fire. What ushers in peace. What music do I REALLY like? Wow… I have learned so much about myself! I have learned that meditating before bed really helps me quiet my mind so that I can fall asleep faster. I have discovered that smudging sage before bed helps me to feel like I am in tune with nature— even though we live in a concrete jungle. I love watching tv shows and movies that are historically based, maybe with a little bit of a love story to it. I miss rain, a lot. I love reading, it is quite possibly my favorite leisure activity. I have discovered my strength again. I have learned that I CAN keep my mouth shut when I need to and that I don’t have to let my emotions run me. I have discovered that not all my thoughts are mine but that they are in fact things that people have told me, about me. I have learned that to master your mind, you have to be an observer of your own thoughts, rather than allowing them to just run wild on their own. I have realized that I don’t like being told who to be; how to act, dress, speak, what to believe. Now these things, being told who I am, those things nearly choked the life right out of me. I will never be a list of what to do, how to act, what to say. I was not created to be subservient and mild. I have learned to find my voice again and I am learning how to use it, tactfully.

Trauma choked me. It choked the uniqueness right out of me. Other people choked it out of me. Religion choked it out of me. It isn’t anyone else’s fault, I must have allowed it to happen at some point. But a few months ago, I had a realization that it was time I took my power back. I have something that doesn’t belong to anyone else but me and that is ME. Though the world around me presses in, beckoning to shape me into who IT wants me to be, I can stand my ground. Though living a trauma life has molded me into someone completely different than who I once was, I have the choice to not allow it to make me a bitter woman. Instead, I will allow it to add to my storehouse of wisdom and skill. Religion will not place its shackles around my wrists, Christ died to set me free and I am dearly loved! No person or establishment will tell me who to be, that is for me to discover.

This is freedom. These are the wide open spaces that all of us so desire. This isn’t, Hey anything goes but this is figuring out who we are in spite of all that we have been through. And we have a choice. Be a better person, a brighter- more forward looking person? Or do we sink into the depths in our pity and woe and remain there? You choose friend, who are you going to be today? The choice is yours.

Be blessed.

When giving up is not an option.

“Never give up on what you really want to do. The person with big dreams is more powerful than the one with all the facts.” Albert Einstein

There are life circumstances that do not allow for giving up or even taking a break from those circumstances. These are the kind of circumstances that are day in and day out, from the moment you wake until you go to bed at night and sometimes throughout the night. These are the type of circumstances in which you need a mighty outpouring of grace each day to get through and thrive through. For some, this is just their lives and to others, it is a spectacle. Which maybe in some cases, it is both.

I like to keep it real on here. Sometimes it challenges the mind; “religion,” personal opinions, puts you in a place of; “well if that were me I would…..” —which is a dangerous place to put yourself in. I want to ask the question; why keep going? What drives a man or a woman to keep on pushing when there seems to be no reason to carry on? Is it pride? Hope? Stupidity? I can give you my reasons but what are yours? What spurs you on? The thrill; accomplishment, you can’t stop, Jesus?

I lived that other life, the one before Jesus. I was like a wayward child, following my any and every whim. I had no idea what I was doing. I wanted what I wanted at the moment, even if it had no eternal meaning or purpose. Eternity had no bearing on my decision making because I figured I was just going to go to hell anyway (thanks religion) so why not just do what I want to do while I’m here.

Since Jesus, I haven’t found perfection and all the universes answers haven’t been revealed to me but I know that if I pray about something, the Holy Spirit is faithful to answer me. Although there are some times where it feels as though the lines of communication are silent. He’s still there and I’m still here. Sometimes we can’t see through our own stuff to receive what He is saying. I don’t doubt His presence or His ability to share insight with me.

There are mountains that have not moved, they are big and exhausting. I detest the very sight of them because I know they don’t belong, they aren’t in line with “On earth as it is in heaven.” What are you supposed to do when you’re tired, you feel as though you just can’t do it anymore?

“You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve.  Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We have come to believe and to know that you are the Holy One of God.” John 6:67-69

I know life is extremely difficult sometimes and often. I know some of us want nothing more than to just lay down and not get back up again. I know you are tired and weary. I’m not going to tell you to get back up and fight more, this isn’t your battle. This isn’t my battle either. I’m tired. Everyday I do what I need to do with the grace that Papa gives me each day, that is the only way I have come to discover how to get everything done. But where else are we going to go? Backwards isn’t the answer. Into hiding won’t suffice. Death is no solution at all, there is always a better answer than death. If you are contemplating suicide, please reach out to someone, there is always someone who is willing to help and listen. (including me)

“The righteous person may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all.” Psalm 34:19

“Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” 1 Peter 5:7

I’m not the kind of person who is going to throw a ton of scripture at you because that is what I “should do.” I place it here because I believe it. I believe that in spite of all my difficulties and disappointments, that Papa still loves me and walks with me through my every day life. I am willing to bet that He grieves right along with me. Buy why hasn’t this or what prayer been answered? Honestly, I don’t know but I’m not going to avoid Him or stop pressing in for answers and insight. The path I once walked was hopeless, on this path, I have a great deal of hope even when to most, it still looks hopeless.

I liked Peter’s response; “Lord, to whom shall we go?” There isn’t anywhere else to go. Once you have walked with Jesus, there isn’t anywhere else to go. If I don’t perceive there to be hope in this lifetime, there is hope in the next life. I know that at least in this lifetime I will never be alone, even when I feel alone. I will never be lost because He knows exactly where I am. I know He always knows how I feel, when I get the sense that no one else does. These things I take comfort in. When there seems to be nothing else, I have this, I have these promises. Do you not realize the bearing your beliefs have on your very lives?

“For as he thinks within himself, so is he.
He will grudgingly say, “Go ahead and eat all you want,”
but in his heart he resents the fact that he has to pay for your meal.” Proverbs 23:7 TPT

What you believe, truly believe is more evident in your life than what you speak. Don’t put on a show, just believe. What do you have to lose? You lose everything that was worth losing in the first place; anger, hatred, hopelessness, anxiousness, wayward living, purposelessness. When you have no reason to carry on, you still have one more reason, the One who loves you more dearly than you know. What is behind you is not worth revisiting. Get into a quiet space and give it all to Jesus, I can tell you from experience He’s got your back and He can handle anything you can manage to throw at Him.

I pray that this blessed somebody today. If you know some of my story, this post would make a lot more sense, so please read some prior posts to fill in some of the blanks. I know surrender isn’t always easy and pressing on isn’t either. But I know you have all the love and support you do need coming from the hands of a loving Father, just trust Him.

Love overrides all…

‘“Teacher,” they said to Jesus, “this woman was caught in the act of adultery.  The law of Moses says to stone her. What do you say?” They were trying to trap him into saying something they could use against him, but Jesus stooped down and wrote in the dust with his finger. They kept demanding an answer, so he stood up again and said, “All right, but let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!” Then he stooped down again and wrote in the dust.When the accusers heard this, they slipped away one by one, beginning with the oldest, until only Jesus was left in the middle of the crowd with the woman. Then Jesus stood up again and said to the woman, “Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?” “No, Lord,” she said. And Jesus said, “Neither do I. Go and sin no more.”’ John 8:4-11

Can you even imagine the scene? This woman who was caught in the act of adultery was likely dragged out of bed naked or maybe partially naked and thrown into the dirt and called out for her sin in front of a crowd. She was probably scared; mortified, felt completely exposed in more ways than one and possibly repentant. Who knows what kind of life she lived up until this point. Maybe she was a prostitute or had been sexually abused at a tender age, forever impacting how she viewed sex. We don’t know but one thing we do know, Jesus treated her with dignity in a terribly undignified situation.

I like to think that Jesus was writing in the sand as a sign of His lack of interest in the Pharisee’s antics. I like to think there was an eye roll in there somewhere too. He already knew what they were doing before they even brought the woman to Him. His answer was spoken to them in a language they could understand, the law. But His answer to the woman was given through grace.

” For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.” John 3:17

” God is love. When we take up permanent residence in a life of love, we live in God and God lives in us. This way, love has the run of the house, becomes at home and mature in us, so that we’re free of worry on Judgment Day—our standing in the world is identical with Christ’s. There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgment—is one not yet fully formed in love. We, though, are going to love—love and be loved. First we were loved, now we love. He loved us first.” 1 John 4:17-19 MSG

Jesus didn’t come into the world to condemn it and if we have the same standing in this world as He did, then why are we running around hitting people over the head with the Bible? Why are we getting into arguments with each other about doctrine? Didn’t Jesus tell us to love one another, so that others will know that we are His disciples, His friends? Why is the church so dang mean? Why do we judge others? Why do we shut them out? Why do we not include them because they are different? Or are caught up in an addiction or a lifestyle that may be considered less than savory? Why!? We aren’t here to judge either! If we judge, we are driven by fear and if we fear, love is not perfected in us. If Jesus didn’t judge, then nor shall I! Did you not know that love covers over a multitude of sins? Love raises others up out of muck they are in. Love puts a smile on a persons face and reminds them that they are valued. Can you imagine the impact you can have on people if you just do the very thing Jesus called us to do, love others? Can you see the smiling faces? The filthy coats that will be shed because someone was loved back to life?

I can remember not feeling loved or accepted, it was an awful feeling. The enemy hisses in your ear that you’re not valued and that the world would be a better place without you. It is a heavy burden to feel so low and unloved, or worse, unlovable! There are people out there who have never felt loved, never had someone ask their name, or pay them a compliment. There are people who aren’t even treated like a human being, with a real beating heart in their chest, just like you and I! That is a horrid, horrid truth to consider but it is a fact! And because we have God living within us, we have the distinct honor of loving people. Not just certain people but all people!

We are the church! This isn’t someone else’s problem, it is ours! This is our commission. This is our privilege, our honor. This isn’t a burden or “our cross to bear,” it is an honor. Papa is love and because He loved us first, we have the ability to love others.

Allow your compassion run wild. Let your love set fires in hearts, in communities and in the world! I would rather die and have God tell me that I loved too much, rather than loving too little!

Yeah but what about this scripture that says this, and this scripture that says that!? Just love, pure and simple love. Judgement isn’t our job, just love. We can take and piece together scripture to support our agendas and leave a whole trail of destruction behind us, as the church has already done. I don’t want to hear another story about someone who went to church and got hurt or shut out. It took an awful lot of courage for those people to walk through those church doors after their last bad experience and we’ve gone and done it to them again? Love is of the utmost importance, Jesus said it is the highest command. It isn’t our place to determine if they “deserve it,” just love them. Don’t expect anything in return, just love them.

Papa is so good to have already filled our hearts unto over flowing, now we just have to get out there and let it spill out all over the place! Throw love around like glitter, make the whole world around you sparkle! Let His glory shine through you! Oh man, what a beautiful thing! I am so psyched right now, love, plain and simple, endless love!

God bless you all, I hope this fired you up too, to get out there and just love on others. You won’t run out, you won’t grow tired and your life will be far from boring! Let’s light the world on fire with love!

Don’t believe the lies

There are some things in life that sound far too simple to grasp and yet, for some reason are difficult to believe and take within ourselves. Believing that Jesus died for you may be an easier concept to grab a hold of, most people manage to grab hold of that. For many the offer comes along at just the right time, much like a beacon of light on a dark night or a life raft. So we cling to it with all of our might. But now what? There is so much more!

Following Christ isn’t sin management. It isn’t checks and balances. It isn’t getting all cleaned up on the outside, while still living in despair within. It isn’t a list of do’s and don’ts, even though many teachings out there will have you believe it is. “So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” John 8:36

You are infinitely free from all of the above. You are free to be you while you walk along with your Lord every single day. When you said yes to Jesus, you died and were raised to life with Him. The old has gone, the new has arrived, His Spirit lives within you. He is there for your benefit, to guide you and to shape you into your new likeness, if you are willing to let Him in on it. You still have the free will to say no, but why would you? Life with Jesus is a beautiful relationship, the most beautiful relationship you will ever have! He has nothing but good things to say about you. He adores you and thinks nothing but good thoughts about you. His will for you is always the highest thing possible, He wants you to reach your fullest potential.

“I can’t afford to have thoughts in my head about me that God doesn’t have in his.” Bill Johnson

You know how when you mess up, your mind begins to reel and the next thing you know, your whole countenance has changed from light to dark? It’s like a snowball. It begins with negative thoughts that then begin to manifest themselves as problems around you. You break a glass or you hit every red light on the way home or your spouse shoots you a look that wasn’t joy filled. The life that we experience begins with the thoughts that occupy our minds. If you are busy thinking illegal thoughts about you or someone else, your mind darkens and what you see around you is more darkness or negativity.

Changing your thinking isn’t the crescendo, it is believing what you are thinking. Many people believe in Jesus but they don’t believe Him. Yep, that’s right, they don’t believe Him. They don’t believe all the good things He says about Him. This is the hardest part, this is where most people miss the bus on living life abundantly. Why is it so easy for most people to believe the terrible things that are said about them and not the kind and truthful things Jesus says about them? Because their faith was in others, rather than the One who truly loves us. Their identity is found in others, rather than the only One who knows who we are inside and out. Once we shift our focus from others to the only One who truly knows, the opinions and words of others fall to the wayside.

This is freedom. This is the one thing that if we don’t get this, there will always be some sort of anchor attached to our legs. We may move forward a little but with great striving and grief, not with ease and grace.

“Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It’s God’s gift from start to finish! We don’t play the major role. If we did, we’d probably go around bragging that we’d done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.” Ephesians 2:7-10

Hinge yourself upon this. I know I have shared this scripture with you before but it is infinitely important and applicable anytime. God does it, from start to finish. Say yes, that is all. With each step, say yes to Him. Anything you hear that is contrary to what He says about you is a lie. The lie may come from someone you love, do not condemn them but trust that the Holy Spirit within them will align them with all truth and simply remind yourself who you are in Him. That is all that you ever need to know about yourself, what He says.

Until we stop believing the lies, there isn’t much of a difference between us and the rest of the world. We can’t be tossed about by every word spoken over of, we are called to be different, to be certain, unshakable. This isn’t anything you can muster up on your own remember, God does it all from start to finish.

There is so much more to this blog, it will likely be multiple parts but I believe this is a good place to begin. I pray this blessed someone today, God bless you all!

Who do they see when they see you?

“Let them see you, In me
Let them hear you, When I speak
Let them feel you, When I sing
Let them see you
Let them see you in me” Song; Let them see you, JJ Weeks band.

When the road is hard and long and you have been waiting forever for your breakthrough, what comes out of you? When you are among other people, are you kind and patient and loving? When a friend is down on their luck, do you encourage them and give them a hand up? 

“If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that?  Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” Matthew 5:46-48

If you allow this scripture to sink in, it will guide you in the art of loving like Christ. What risk is there, being loving toward strangers? If we know who we are in Christ and know that our Papa loves us, there is no sense of rejection. If we can’t even manage to welcome people from outside our church into the 4 walls we call church, how are we any different than the rest of the world? People go to church every week looking for the answer to the age old question; why am I alive? The physical building of the church can lead someone to that answer. But they have to feel welcome there. Church isn’t a country club for the elite saved folks, it’s a hospital for the once sick, in process of recovery! We are all in process. Never think so highly of yourself, that you have arrived, you are changing and evolving and growing just like the rest of us. I certainly don’t want to go somewhere, where I feel like I have to try and fit in. I already should fit in because we are brothers and sisters in Christ and that is enough. If you think there is more than that to qualify, then that thought pattern needs to be thrown out.

You have what it takes to be like Jesus, more than you may comprehend. You already are like Jesus, He lives within you, His spirit moves and breathes within you. Allow His warmth to wrap around others and love on them. Allow His peace to permeate wherever you are. Let His words leave your lips and fall upon the ears of those around you. The people around you are dying to see Him, you may be the only Bible someone reads. It is more in how you conduct yourself, than it is in what you say. The Pharisees were the holiest of holy but Jesus had bones to pick with them at every turn. They talked an awful lot and kept themselves quite cleaned up but the conditions on their hearts and their motives stunk. We don’t want to be found to be anything like them.

Throw love and kindness around like glitter! You’ll never run out and it doesn’t matter if you ever receive it back because Papa sees what you do and He will surely reward you well.

I hope this encouraged someone today. I know it’s a hard line but it hurts to hear about people trying out church and leaving saying they will never return. For someone who doesn’t know Papa yet, that’s a difficult situation. They went looking for something and allowed themselves to be vulnerable enough to go and somewhere along the line, they were let down. Heck, I’ve recently had some less than stellar church experiences but I know who Papa is, so I’m not discouraged. I’m sad about it, sure and it needs to change but we will continue our search for our new church home. It just won’t be the places we have already gone. I don’t want a red carpet but I do hope to see love for Jesus and love for your fellow believer. You can’t really have one without the other. Jesus did tell us, to love one another as I have loved you. If we miss that target, we’ve missed everything. God bless you all.

The breath of life

“God of Your promise
You don’t speak in vain
No syllable empty or void

For once You have spoken
All nature and science
Follow the sound of Your voice And as You speak
A hundred billion creatures catch Your breath
Evolving in pursuit of what You said
If it all reveals Your nature so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You say
Every painted sky
A canvas of Your grace
If creation still obeys You so will I” song: So will I, 100 billion x

I remember hearing song posted above and it captivated me instantly. Songs don’t really do that to me anymore, whether secular or worship music but this one caught me off guard. “For once you have spoken, All nature and science follow the sound of your voice.” That lyric in particular, catches me. If everything, spare humans are as God intended, and they still follow the sound of His voice, what was His initial instruction to us?

God spoke: “Let us make human beings in our image, make them
        reflecting our nature
    So they can be responsible for the fish in the sea,
        the birds in the air, the cattle,
    And, yes, Earth itself,
        and every animal that moves on the face of Earth.”
    God created human beings;
        he created them godlike,
    Reflecting God’s nature.
        He created them male and female.
    God blessed them:
        “Prosper! Reproduce! Fill Earth! Take charge!
    Be responsible for fish in the sea and birds in the air,
       for every living thing that moves on the face of Earth.” Genesis 1:26-28

I chose the message version for some of the wording— the words, being “responsible for the earth”, rather than the word “subdue” which some misunderstand for being domineering or controlling, treating however we wish, which I don’t believe was God’s intention. In the NIV, God instructs Adam and Eve to be fruitful and multiply. Multiply of course was make other little Adam’s and Eve’s but being fruitful is another, rather large subject. Jesus spoke a lot about fruitfulness. When God breathed life into Adam and also created Eve, they too, like the song, began to evolve in pursuit of what God said. And so we know how things fell apart quickly and so sin came into their perfect world God had created. They were cast out, to live in a sin shadowed land. Adam and Eve were the original light bearers. They could no longer bear that light because they invited darkness in. But let me ask you something. If Jesus restored the light by dying on a cross for us, taking up sin and death and even illnesses, isn’t our original relationship status with Papa restored?

Because of what Christ did, our relationship is restored to God. Our responsibility here is to be fruitful (expand the territory, bear the fruit of Christ) and multiply in number and also take care of or be responsible for the earth and all of it’s inhabitants. Christ lives within us, we ought to bear the fruit of Christ. We are responsible for the planet, one rather large goal of ours should be to reduce waste and our carbon footprints. We are responsible for animals, we should take care to not slaughter them to satisfy our appetites. (Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food. Genesis 1:29)  This place, these animals, these people aren’t “things” that we can do as we please, this is our responsibility to steward it well. I feel like this is often a subject many won’t approach because it is a subject people become very passionate about or can be viewed in other ways or in other versions, the wording is different. Think about it, we were restored to our original plan for relationship with God. God walked in the cool of the evening with Adam, they spoke, God knew Adam and Adam knew God. You could say they did life together. When God looks at you, He sees what His Son did, not the darkness that broke out and cast it’s shadow over Eden.

What is fruitfulness then? Fruitfulness is lighting other peoples torches whose are still snuffed out. It is demonstrating your identity through love and action.

We all know the fruits of the spirit from Galatians 5:22-23,
“But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!” This is merely an outline of fruitfulness. Bearing fruit is so much more. It isn’t just a plan that works out so that you can glorify God. It isn’t just sharing the gospel with someone. It isn’t just filling up a backpack for needy children at the start of the school year. It isn’t “getting people saved,” or moving in the gifts of the spirit. These are great things, I am not speaking against them, I am saying they are not just these things. It is a lifestyle of never ending heavenly expansion, knowing that everywhere you go, you bring the kingdom with you. That even in your darkest hours and on your worst days, you still live and breathe Christ crucified and what He came to restore to you. That even when life squeezes you, Jesus still comes out. The hopeless need to see hope. The loveless need to feel love, not judgement. The lost need their footpath lit for them because after all someone else did that for you at some point! The Holy Spirit with produce these fruits for you. You need only yield to Him. How else can we be enabled to live like that, still having hope in the midst of trials, other than by the power of God? Other people need to see it, this is the kind of fruit people need to see. This is the kind of stuff that make people wonder why you’re so different than everybody else. Allow the Holy Spirit to work this within you.

We have a job here, a directive. Jesus was the exact representation of the Father while on the earth, our job is the same. He handed over the keys to us when He left, then sent His Spirit to give us the ability. There is nothing that is truly fruitful that we can do apart from the Father. Our world has been turned into a mess because of man’s perceived notion of fruitfulness. Man has lined his pockets with the monies made from his “fruitfulness.” It is high time we get our heads screwed back on straight and pick up where Jesus left off. We don’t have another earth to run to once this one is destroyed. If you think animals voluntarily go off to the slaughter and not cry out when they are killed, you are sorely mistaken. If you think someone else will make up for your rudeness, you’re wrong. Let’s love and respect everyone and everything because each are a gift from God. When He originally created everything, He said it was good. It is still good, we just have to get back to treating it like it is good, treating everything and everyone with love and respect.

Your relationship with Papa has been fully restored, there was no part of it that He didn’t take account for or miss. Let us live accordingly. I do know, this life, this walk with Jesus is a life long process. It is a day to day, sometimes minute by minute thing, matching His steps, one at a time. If we don’t have revelation about who we are called to be, then how can we, “Evolve in pursuit of what You said?” If we are uncertain of what He said, He left behind an entire book. And if that isn’t enough, He sent His Spirit. The wrong things begin to repulse us after a while, whether it is thinking patterns or habits. We no longer fit in the old mold from which we came, it’s terribly uncomfortable going back. So, let’s not go back anymore, let’s continue to move forward and evolve. Christ by His spirit will enable us to do so. Oh thank you Father that I am not who I once was! Oh friends, doesn’t that feel good? You have been restored. You are redeemed. You are made whole. You are dearly, dearly loved!