“Never give up on what you really want to do. The person with big dreams is more powerful than the one with all the facts.” Albert Einstein
There are life circumstances that do not allow for giving up or even taking a break from those circumstances. These are the kind of circumstances that are day in and day out, from the moment you wake until you go to bed at night and sometimes throughout the night. These are the type of circumstances in which you need a mighty outpouring of grace each day to get through and thrive through. For some, this is just their lives and to others, it is a spectacle. Which maybe in some cases, it is both.
I like to keep it real on here. Sometimes it challenges the mind; “religion,” personal opinions, puts you in a place of; “well if that were me I would…..” —which is a dangerous place to put yourself in. I want to ask the question; why keep going? What drives a man or a woman to keep on pushing when there seems to be no reason to carry on? Is it pride? Hope? Stupidity? I can give you my reasons but what are yours? What spurs you on? The thrill; accomplishment, you can’t stop, Jesus?
I lived that other life, the one before Jesus. I was like a wayward child, following my any and every whim. I had no idea what I was doing. I wanted what I wanted at the moment, even if it had no eternal meaning or purpose. Eternity had no bearing on my decision making because I figured I was just going to go to hell anyway (thanks religion) so why not just do what I want to do while I’m here.
Since Jesus, I haven’t found perfection and all the universes answers haven’t been revealed to me but I know that if I pray about something, the Holy Spirit is faithful to answer me. Although there are some times where it feels as though the lines of communication are silent. He’s still there and I’m still here. Sometimes we can’t see through our own stuff to receive what He is saying. I don’t doubt His presence or His ability to share insight with me.
There are mountains that have not moved, they are big and exhausting. I detest the very sight of them because I know they don’t belong, they aren’t in line with “On earth as it is in heaven.” What are you supposed to do when you’re tired, you feel as though you just can’t do it anymore?
“You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve. Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We have come to believe and to know that you are the Holy One of God.” John 6:67-69
I know life is extremely difficult sometimes and often. I know some of us want nothing more than to just lay down and not get back up again. I know you are tired and weary. I’m not going to tell you to get back up and fight more, this isn’t your battle. This isn’t my battle either. I’m tired. Everyday I do what I need to do with the grace that Papa gives me each day, that is the only way I have come to discover how to get everything done. But where else are we going to go? Backwards isn’t the answer. Into hiding won’t suffice. Death is no solution at all, there is always a better answer than death. If you are contemplating suicide, please reach out to someone, there is always someone who is willing to help and listen. (including me)
“The righteous person may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all.” Psalm 34:19
“Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” 1 Peter 5:7
I’m not the kind of person who is going to throw a ton of scripture at you because that is what I “should do.” I place it here because I believe it. I believe that in spite of all my difficulties and disappointments, that Papa still loves me and walks with me through my every day life. I am willing to bet that He grieves right along with me. Buy why hasn’t this or what prayer been answered? Honestly, I don’t know but I’m not going to avoid Him or stop pressing in for answers and insight. The path I once walked was hopeless, on this path, I have a great deal of hope even when to most, it still looks hopeless.
I liked Peter’s response; “Lord, to whom shall we go?” There isn’t anywhere else to go. Once you have walked with Jesus, there isn’t anywhere else to go. If I don’t perceive there to be hope in this lifetime, there is hope in the next life. I know that at least in this lifetime I will never be alone, even when I feel alone. I will never be lost because He knows exactly where I am. I know He always knows how I feel, when I get the sense that no one else does. These things I take comfort in. When there seems to be nothing else, I have this, I have these promises. Do you not realize the bearing your beliefs have on your very lives?
“For as he thinks within himself, so is he.
He will grudgingly say, “Go ahead and eat all you want,”
but in his heart he resents the fact that he has to pay for your meal.” Proverbs 23:7 TPT
What you believe, truly believe is more evident in your life than what you speak. Don’t put on a show, just believe. What do you have to lose? You lose everything that was worth losing in the first place; anger, hatred, hopelessness, anxiousness, wayward living, purposelessness. When you have no reason to carry on, you still have one more reason, the One who loves you more dearly than you know. What is behind you is not worth revisiting. Get into a quiet space and give it all to Jesus, I can tell you from experience He’s got your back and He can handle anything you can manage to throw at Him.
I pray that this blessed somebody today. If you know some of my story, this post would make a lot more sense, so please read some prior posts to fill in some of the blanks. I know surrender isn’t always easy and pressing on isn’t either. But I know you have all the love and support you do need coming from the hands of a loving Father, just trust Him.